Swears. I couldn't concentrate in class at all. It feels like being semi-concious and upset at the same time. Whatever I copied down I don't remember now, it all seems like me doodling away. And I always seem to go out when there's always something new or important to learn. Twice today. And I didn't really care. Although I did spend time with Jy during break and for a short while after school, I sat through class alone. So many thoughts running through my mind. Weird feeling. And at that moment all I wanted to do was just to hug my sunshines. It's that dissapointing feeling much worse than coming home expecting to see my tortise there but it isn't there anymore. I'd like to have it back but nobody in this family seems to welcome the idea anymore. That's just a piece of the missing jigsaw of my life. Another half of it is still missing. Someone must have stolen them away. I wonder when will they reappear.